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A fantastic book of poems, Among Women by Jason Shinder will leave you smiling, laughing, teary-eyed, and, more than anything, sorry. Sorry because Jason Shinder is no longer with us. He passed away at the age of 52 only a few years ago. He was a beautiful writer and, from what I read, a really nice man. My favorite poem from this book:
The One Secret That Has Carried
Irene loves a man
who is afraid of sex--
she's attended
to everything,
said it was okay
held me until I slept.
She says, Why don't you just
not think about it?
But I want to know
every sensation,
nothing untouched,
though I pull my hand away
once she's found it
I can't be around a woman
too long
too much
I say, I was mistreated.
She says, A cup of tea?
I say, I can't start a thing
and then
describe the kind
of thing I'd start.
We talk about ballrooms,
long sleeves and sashes,
say someday,
we should go somewhere
though we can't think
of anywhere
and then I say abruptly,
I've never loved
hard enough
to be loved back.
I say it as if I've had enough
of the whole goddamn
world and will never
be satisfied.
I'm looking
at the wall
She's looking out
the window because
she needs
to be somewhere.
Later, I leave a note:
Sorry for the difficulties.
Meaning: how come
you don't leave?
I've never told this story.
Even at the moment
of dying
I would say
it was someone else's.
Final Grade: A